When the "Rendezvous" Just Ain't for You...(or Me)

I hate to say it but it looks like the "Rendezvous" didn't work out so well for us. It looks like we'll be traveling on to the next adventure; IVF (In Vitro Fertilization)! 

IVF....Never in a million years would I have thought that I would be the one to need IVF.  To me, the whole thing always sounded so scientific and complicated. Well, friends, it pretty much is just that! I can't help but be extremely nervous about the whole thing but I know that Brian is here to support me and to be by my side as well as God, who is here with me even when I don't think he is [sometimes]. 

Unfortunately, the earliest appointment that was available for us to meet for a follow-up conversation with Dr. P wasn't until November 7th. BUMMER!!  I will give an update on the process when we know for sure exactly the plan of action Dr. P will give us.

So, without wasting any "precious" time, I am going to do a little self-treatment while we are in our holding pattern for the IVF plan of action. Self- treatment, you say?? YES. I have gathered some extra Clomid that I had at home and will be taking that during this month just for "fun." Haha..."just for fun" is really a weird way to put it. This whole process has been anything but fun.

Fun is when we used to believe that we would miraculously end up getting pregnant. Fun is when we could just live carelessly without the heartache of a miscarriage and the reminders of not having our own children when our friends and people around us were shoving babies into our faces. FUN was not knowing that I would struggle with infertility.

I know that I am very fortunate to be able to have the resources available to me for this type of treatment and an insurance policy that pays a large amount of what it costs. I am constantly reminded about how fortunate I am to have such a wonderful, loving and supportive husband who gives himself to me selflessly. And I KNOW that I have an AMAZING GOD who is carrying us through such difficult times. 

I am reminded daily by God in some way or another about how to keep my faith in Him; even when it's the least I can do. 

Today, I am reminded by God to keep my head up and my faith strong through KLOVE's Encouraging Word of the day: "Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing" John 15:5 NLT