Life has really been put into perspective for me lately. Earlier this week, we got some bad news about our oldest "fur-baby," Champ. He had a vet appointment for his Rabies shot and to have what seemed to be a cyst on his front left leg. The larger-than a golf ball-sized cyst turned out to be a malignant tumor; in other words, CANCER.
CANCER is NOT a friend of mine but has been a frequent heart-breaker in our lives recently. Within the past year and a half, we lost my Granny to the nasty C-word, I had 3 friends diagnosed, two of which lost their battle and the third is in remission.
There are a lot of things in life that I don't understand such as why it's taking us so long to get pregnant or why we have to wait for what our hearts desire or why people even get sick with diseases such as cancer. I may not care to understand everything but what I really would love to understand is why God takes such wonderful people from us so early. I know that all things come within his timing but the hurt is just so much to bear.
With all of that being said, finding out that OUR DOG had cancer and the only options were to operate (with an extremely high chance of the tumor growing right back) or to amputate. Champ is 11-years old. He's at the end of what the vet says is his life-span of 11-13 years. The operation must happen ASAP before the tumor becomes inoperable since it's in a place where there's little skin to work with for repair. We had to decide whether or not to make the financial commitment of an operation on Champ's leg. The operation is no guarantee that the cancer will be completely removed and could come back within weeks after the surgery. This was a hard decision for us to make financially since we've been planning on moving into the journey of IVF.
We decided that it would not be fair to give-up on Champ and that he would have the operation to remove the tumor. It is so hard to see him in so much pain to walk. Even if it meant that he was pain-free for a short amount of time and the tumor returned, we felt comfortable in knowing that there's a [small] chance that it may not return. With this decision, we've decided that we would meet with our fertility specialist next week to discuss the beginning of IVF but will not actually begin the process until early next year [2014].
Honestly, the break from trying to get pregnant comes as a sigh of relief to me. I can focus on BR and the animals as well as my school-work for these next couple of months. I strongly believe that this is God telling me that he's in control and that ALL things happen on his clock.
Of course, when all things seem to be in disarray, I was reminded of my belief that our lives are controlled by God's timing this morning with my Daily Devotional. Here's what it said:
God Causes Things to Happen at the Right Time
Are you waiting for the desires of your heart to begin to manifest? Are
you praying for bondages to fall off of you so you can see your dreams
come to pass? Are you waiting and praying for the salvation of friends
and family? Are you trusting God for prosperity, favor, promotion,
honor, and all the blessings found in His Word?
Are you tired of waiting for harvest time in your life? Are you
frustrated, crying out, "When, God, when?" Then you need to understand
that God's timing is often a mystery. He doesn't do things on our
timetable. Yet His Word promises that He will not be late, not one
single day.
God causes things to happen at exactly the right time! Your job is not
to figure out when, but to make up your mind that you won't give up
until you cross the finish line and are living in the radical,
outrageous blessings of God! The more you trust Jesus and keep your eyes
focused on Him, the more life you'll have. Trusting God brings life.
Believing brings rest. So stop trying to figure everything out, and let
God be God in your life.
Prayer Starter: God, I know that Your timing is perfect, even when I
grow tired of waiting. Help me to trust in You and rest in Your plan for
me.
"For
the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will
not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come
and will not delay." ~Habakkuk 2:3
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